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Reflections

To Bake Or To Buy?
My Purim Question
A few years into the "mothering thing" my enthusiasm for these homey projects was on the wane. I opted for the clean and easy way to do the mitzvah of Shalach Manot: a trip to the kosher bakery for store-bought hamantashen...
Our Daily Bread
Thoughts on Shabbat Shira
I remember thinking, "Is this what it was like, when the Jews were walking through the desert and their only food was the manna that fell from the sky each night?" Waiting and looking for your daily ration is a humbling experience...
Tatte, My Father
Through his example—
his sincerity, his devotion to G‑d, incomparable wit,
and unassuming ways
Tatte has taught me many important lessons...
Meeting An Old Friend For The First Time
Over the years, Wendy and I have learned, over the years, a couple of works on the Torah portion of the week as well as several other books, and we have shared many hours of the best kind of joy...
Samantha the Gerbil
Looking Beyond the Surface
It was after Shabbat, and my husband and I were taking our usual stroll around town, but that night we saw a sight which touched us both- and reminded us not to judge other people so quickly...
I'm in a Relationship. It's Complicated
Is that a relationship? I ask, He answers. He gives, I take. Seems somewhat one sided. What am I giving back? What is G‑d gaining out of all of this?
Living in the Moment
Sometimes, the real way to live in the moment, to accomplish something, is to do nothing...
Turning 50
Hitting Middle Age
But nothing could stop my body from progressing on its natural path of womanhood – nothing. After crying for two days straight, I realized I was in perimenopause...
On the Power of Being Yourself
Once upon a time, a baby girl was born to a man who came from the world of the earth, and a woman who came from the world of the skies. They wandered the earth in search of their happiness and dreams...
Games People Play
Tell me. Who are you on the playground?
The Back-Up Generator
Instead of going about my day automatically flicking on switches that would give energy to my actions, I was left to find alternative tasks to occupy my attention. I floundered in a feeling of desperation at this possibility, for such is my reliance...
Pass the Birthday Cake, Please
Since there are so many things I like to do on my special day, I now give myself two days to celebrate. n my actual birthday, an auspicious time when my good fortune is dominant, I concentrate on connecting to my Creator. The day after, I take time out to do fun things...
The Inner City Dweller
It is like a battle between conceit and humility that is happening in my soul. I think in one way, only to recognize the absolute delusion of my estimation....
The Tutor
The student is frustrated. She has been going in circles for forty-five minutes trying to figure out one line. And the tutor, she is at a loss. Part of her knows that feeding a student her thesis is not what she is there for, but is also not to the advantage of the student...
Brownies
It had been eight long months of running between my parent's house and the hospital. Eight long months of not knowing what new challenges awaited us day in and day out...
Moving
I can't believe I find myself in the same position, doing the same task: packing. Again, we're moving. We've moved five times in seven years...
A Fleeting Thought
She seemed to always have it together while I was always falling apart. And so it was no wonder that I felt a twinge of satisfaction upon hearing that something was going wrong for her...
The Yes Syndrome
I was always so busy saying "yes" that I forgot to ever ask myself if I wanted to be the chair of a committee, if I had the time to become a "taxi" service, if I was able to volunteer for another fundraiser...
Back to the Garden
I thought redemption was really here — now. A single tear escapes, and a little bit of my heart breaks. I can't help it. It was such a good dream...
The Edge of Time
Have you ever stood on the edge of time and beheld the wonders that could only be found in you?
Twenty Questions
After Twenty Questions, the toy tries to guess the word that you had in mind. No one is looking, and I take this piece in my hand and think of a word. I choose, "G - D"...
Open Eyes
I am here in my own bed but at the same time, I am standing on a distant mountain side. Bushes growing wildly all around, a place deserted and ever so still...
Coming to America
That night, my grandmother slept fitfully, distressed and uncertain about what to do. How could she compromise the values with which she had been raised?
The Light Within
Don’t you feel it deep within the spaces of your soul? Awaken and come forth for I have called you back once more to reveal a message of life and love...
Carry Me
Some days I feel as though I'm carrying years on my back. I never thought about it much before; you see, I believed it was my duty...
Light
The Ultimate Metaphor of G-d's Expression
Toward the end, the candles were as if souls returning to the Creator with their last breath. No longer reaching upwards in a dance between heaven and earth, they were a fragment of their former selves, returning to their grounding wick...
What Kind of Person Are You?
A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose...
A Second Chance
He asked me how much I was owed, and then started to take $8 out of his wallet. It still hadn’t sunk into my thick skull when he said, “For $8 you were screaming at an old man?
A Pillar of Salt
I read how Lot is saved and his wife turns into a pillar of salt. And I search to see my life in these words. I'd rather not see it, of course, as the connection is too intense, too real, too true
A Supernatural High
It begins with desire. A desire to know more. A desire to be more. Surely I can do something on my own is what I would say. Surely my life is worth something just for me being me. It is then that the door begins to open...
A Yom Kippur Reflection
How was I going to stop doing these things when at this very moment of remorse, I was also filled with anger, toward myself and towards others who had harmed me?
Our Soldiers
In Lebanon our soldiers, some of the best young men of our generation, are being hunted and slaughtered like animals. And here I am, inspecting lemons as though nothing is going on?
David and Goliath
As women, we share a collective identity. We often struggle to overcome the same mountains, and we find peace in cool streams of the same valleys. We seek our identity in the piercing bareness of the same wind...
The Pallor Behind the Unexpected
It was his first day of retirement. Suddenly, after all the financial planning and ‎midnight talks with Behira, his wife of forty years, he had no plans...
Faces of a Nation
These are the faces of a nation, comprised of opinions and moods, attitudes and deep feelings. Each person is absorbed in the narrative of his own life, yet somehow, in some omnipotent way, I attempt to find myself in their story, to recognize our similar struggles...
Lessons From an Ant
I can only imagine that from the ants’ perspective, having a human hand descend upon it is a horror of unspeakable proportion...
Life
Life is like a book. Flipping through its pages, yellow with age, we are transported to different places all over the world...
The Daffodil Principle
We walked up to the house. On the patio, we saw a poster. "Answers to the Questions I Know You Are Asking" was the headline. The first answer was a simple one."50,000 bulbs," it read. The second answer was...
The Face of a Hero
It is a name that until a few days ago held no meaning to me. He was a complete stranger, about whom I had never heard and whom I had never met...
Why Do I Pray?
My father, of blessed memory, had been in one of the first American battalions to enter Auschwitz during WWII. What he saw there seemed to haunt him for the rest of his years...
A Sad Glad Week
The truth is that joy usually has both a sad and glad component. Many times, it's the sad part that provides the treasure that conceals the glad part, just waiting to be revealed and experienced...
A Grain of Sand
My Daughter's Bat Mitzvah
A young girl's bat mitzvah is a milestone in her life. A milestone that should be imbued with a message that will escort her into her future. This was the goal tonight...
Tateh: My Father
I lost my father when I was ten-- his only child, his only daughter. It is only in recent times that I have pondered the importance of having a father...
Boats on the Dock
I began thinking about what we as individuals need in our lives to stay buoyant and keep ourselves protected from the dangerous and harmful "rocks" of life. I know that there was a time when I lived my life at low tide...
Survivorship
I knew very little about their past. I was told bits and pieces of their stories. I knew that my little Bubbie had escaped from death's door and had been a Partisan fighter in the forest...
Just for Today
Every year Rosh HaShana comes at me like a speeding train. I wasn't ready and I didn't see it coming. Suddenly I am jumping and running alongside, trying to get aboard...
Rock Star!
My solemn ponderings were interrupted by the slow roll of a motorcycle . . .
Getting the Boot
Oh, no! Parking enforcement, my nemesis, had caught up with me.
G-d Is My Pilot
This was clearly an emergency. It was no longer about making my connecting flight; it was about making it off the plane safely.
When the Music Stops and the Lights Go Out
I just can’t seem to propel myself forward without the music fueling me.