Questions are good. They show you’re alive and thinking. But you’re not going to get the full picture of Torah by pecking like a pigeon at crumbs on the sidewalk.
The only way to comprehend what Torah is saying is with a consistent schedule of study and a good teacher.

The Torah is, indeed,eternal and difficult to comprehend with just one reading like a regular book. We find more meanings as we study more and again. By Torah, I mean, of course, the 24 books that are our best treasure. Followed by the Halachot: instructions of the Rabbis of how to fulfill what Torah is asking. Yes asking-not demanding " Just hear that you have one G-d,and take it into your heart to believe that he is the creator, and guide to your life." NO,there is no direct dialogue we H' as we have with human beings. Torah requests discerning what it means and that is a life time; hence Halachah. . As for Kabbalah it is a wonderful addition but there is one reason why it was suggested not before 40 years old. If you have a good foundation of Torah teachings it will not led you astray, but without it the teaching are more esoteric, and for me the talk at that level has another meaning that Torah itself.First the basis and then more sophisticated teachings.