I can invent myself today
To be the woman I long to become
And fill one small mold,
Squeeze myself in
Like the memory I fit into
So long ago-
A relative child.
Before I grew into this adult uniform,
But that is so tiny a thought
And I cannot breathe in it.
The past invented me-
I want to be someone new.
Oh, I much prefer
To despair, to dramatize
To exult!
But I contain this and that,
Pull it all Together,
And get dressed.
I can fit inside myself;
Just for today,
I'll try it.
I can reinvent myself
But it's a common theme,
Based on the same old formula
My mother used to know.
To scream, to cry, to hide?
Today I am reinvented.
I smile.