Living breath so near me
What once was within yet not fully known So precious after pain
and bitterness rubbed off
Our baby Living breathing “Mamma”
And me so blessed yet struggling to grow
From the beginning
All the while knowing there is so much to avoid
Doing again
Yet trying to see well the shell of this and that
Delights him to no end

I bet You're shining forth to him
from Your concealment
the way he shines to me.

My light out of the darkness
Breathing ”Abba”
And even as he sleeps
My heart awakes
like inner Torah
Secrets shining
Right out of the deepest of the deep

The separation brings me to creation
My son and I embracing with our arms
No longer 'one' like in math calculations but One with You
with our fullest trust