The angels who perceive all things from their haven above, they will never know. They will never confront the ruthless and the insensible, the mountains of obstinate darkness, the futility of screaming as mortal life flogs you against its cold, deaf barriers. To them, all things have reason, nothing is impossible, every event has its cause and that cause its cause—they will never escape the prison of knowing.
Even the divine soul, a breath of G‑d—these are things she can never comprehend until she passes through this world. Here, cast beneath the blanket of Earth’s atmosphere, at some point she can no longer close her eyes to the real world He has made. And find there are things she cannot face. Things that cannot be uttered. Things that cannot be, but are.
A breath of G‑d descends to this world, opens her eyes and closes them. And will open them again. At that time she will see the Essence That Has No Cause.
If someone asks me “who are you?” I answer Avishai. If he says “tell me more about yourself” I start quoting from my narrative: “I was born in Michigan” etc. We all have a narrative we identify with, historical, family, spiritual, etc. to identify as a conceptual self. But the word is not the thing, e.g. the word house is not an actual house, etc. This is not our actual Self, but helps us to survive the physical world. The Creator identifies as “I AM” only, because that is His actual Self, that He IS. So the first actuality of who we are is at the Soul level,“I am”, still at first hanging on to the physical concepts, but slowly leaving imaginations behind to find the actuality. We can no longer go by what some teacher, no matter how holy and intelligent he was/is, and must only be at the actuality level to connect. There is only one Self, of which the Soul is a tiny part, so we must learn to let the actuality of the Self take over and release the concept of ME.The Final Sight.
How does "I am" become a him?
That designates similarly to male and female in that he is the "doer" over the "receiver", It's not an actual gender meaning.