Small & Infinite

Well, this is a difficult one for me..
I was the only girl, among 5 brothers. At that time, in the south, girls were not valued. I played with the little girl in the mirror, just to know who I was and if I existed.
I got married. I became even lesser of a person. I became a mother, even my child told me once that I didn't matter. To my children, even now, I'm nothing, especially now that I'm old.
You might think I'm complaining, 'Oh contrare'! It's easier to be nothing, because if your nothing, you can be anything. But if you are something then that's all you can be. I've always been nothing, that's who I am. A psychiatrist told me that I lost myself among other people and that it was important for me to spend time with myself to know who I am.
To be honest I'm not sure if that's a great thing or not, but it is me, and I don't care to change anything about me, How do you change being "nothing". I'm somebody, only because I have a body. Reply

It takes great effort to shut down that constant stream of thoughts about me, negative thoughts and judgements about others, my self-importance etc.

When you still that incessant rambling noise within, you can hear the greater wisdom and feel the interconnectedness of everything. You reveal the truth that you are a part of something much greater than yourself when you are connected to the source of everything. Reply

Small is the new large. Reply

Simply beautiful, love it! Reply

Good thought. Cool - I like it :-) Reply

small and infinite Dear Tzvi, this is something dual. The feeling of being very little and at the same time ( for whom He is in us and is watching on us with love), very special thing; i guess we get a perspective that .... how many millions of people are at this time in the world ?.....so, to make a deal of oneself only in our mission on how much light and love illuminate the world around us. That is all. Humility is not something that we really can measure in a person. Sometimes a people who we think are so humble maybe they are not. People who look so proud to us maybe is much more humble that we think. I get the conclusion that it is better to get away from judgment. of any kind. Just to know we are a little sand but we need a lot of this little sand to make a beach. And the beach is so nice! Wow! Reply

The Small And The Least It isn't a point of being a small person or the least person. I know a man who is both those things and still remains in them to this day. He feel there will be never any hope in sight of things ever changing for him.
To look and not be seen. To be in a crowd and never noticed. To be in a restaurant and only the waiter knows who you are. To be at home as a writer yet no one will read anything you want published. Reply

Truth Truth has always been closer to us all with one G-d.

Thank you Reply

Interesting It is interesting that this is similar to the Zen philosophy, except that Judaism is a monotheistic faith. That's why the nothingness and smallness does not become apathy and meaninglessness, because we can be closer to G_d.
It's also true that the smaller the ego the less upset we get. Reply

it's like Moshe rabenu- he knew he was a giant but did not act like it -- Reply

small and infinite It is totally true, but you need some good identity body in the first place otherwise it can lead to big problems!

So i would say for over 40+ ??:) Reply

i love it ! since coming to this Chabad site i have been working at this notion. it gets repeated time and time again. it forces me to keep taking stock each time. my reflex is to ask G-d to help me improve. then i forget and so i appreciate the repetition since i need all the help i can get. Reply

:) bless you thank you! Reply