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Frumstepper is a Jewish Twelve Stepper who writes about how she is continually reminded that "G-d is driving the bus," and about her efforts to "let go and let G-d" in dealing with all that life throws her way. You can read more of her musings on her personal blog.
Calm in the face of disturbance
I believe that my Higher Power is arranging the difficulties of my day in order to help me grow from them.
On the back, it looks like a mess, with knots and clumps. But on the front, there may be a masterpiece - a magnificent picture. That's what our lives are like.
There is no "bad" when I can recognize that my Higher Power put it there for me; for some reason, some purpose.
Although it doesn't always seem that way to me at the time, life eventually works out much better when it goes according to G-d's plan rather than mine.
We "program folks" don't fool ourselves into thinking that we can't lose all the ground we've gained, and go slip-sliding right back down the hill, and into that old, slimy, dark hole again.
Before I joined my program, I don't think I could honestly say that I cared much about helping others. If truth be told, I'm not sure that I cared much about others at all—forget about the helping part!
It's not my way, but clearly, my way wasn't the best course for life to take right now -- since that's not the way it turned out.
These days, I don't believe that I am bothering G-d when I approach Him any time of day or night for my requests or needs. No big stuff or small stuff differentiation.
Instead of feeling upset that I must approach the King every day for my every need, I can realize instead that I am truly blessed that He lets me into His chambers every day and patiently listens to my requests.
It's my choice to pick a little discomfort now, in order to heal, recover, and live a happy, healthy, sane and useful life. Hands down, the choice seems much easier when put that way. It even feels quite good to make the right choices now.
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