Our inner “high priest” is the innermost aspect and core of our soul, which is permanently bound to G‑d. This aspect of our soul is that part of us that refuses to participate in any act that is a denial of our connection with G‑d.
The classic example of something that disconnects us from G‑d is idolatry. But really, any violation of G‑d’s will can be considered a form of idolatry, for when we violate G‑d’s will we are serving something other than G‑d (whether it be money, fame, pleasure, or despair). If we would only realize this fact, nothing could entice us away from fulfilling G‑d’s will – whether by dwelling on unholy or depressing thoughts, by speaking unholy or insensitive words, or by performing unholy or destructive actions.
In this context, our personal “high-priestly” grain-offering is the meditative contemplation through which we channel the innermost core of our souls. Like the high priest’s offering, drawing upon the power of this core is necessary both in the figurative “morning,” i.e., when we feel enlightened and inspired, in order to ensure that we channel our energy in accordance with G‑d’s will, and in the figurative “evening,” i.e., when we feel confused or uninspired, in order to ensure that we resist the temptation to go against what we know we should be doing.1
For me, the first thing is B"H, because He allows you to publish these texts and because He allows me to have access to them.
I once sinned and that sin has troubled me all my life. I think it logical to suppose that that inner High Priest, at the time of sin, was totally annulled. What conditions led to this annulment? And that is the root of the problem; some of us have grown like animals, without anyone telling us about Good and Evil, about G-d, about living according to ethics and when we sin we do not even realize what we did and who we might have offended. G-d begins to reclaim from us, long after, what we did, which in my case resulted in mental collapse.