Bitachon – Trust in G-d (1)

Whomever stumbles unto this audio again. I just want to say that may Hashem give you the strength to have more bitachon. two years in from my previous comment. My life is not what I wanted it to be. but it has gotten better. This year i stumble myself into a girl filled with darkness(not her fault) but she's so damaged that she has been unwilling to change. And i pray to Hashem that he helps this poor girl. If its through me that she will find healing or not, but I ask for this my whole life. A damaged girl. And i found one. idk if she is meant for me. I pray everyday that Hashem makes her mine, because i love everything about her, not what she does, but its not her fault and i hope Hashem shows her the light. Reply

For whatever reason today 3.24.20 at 11:25pm. I felt this sense of urge to listen to this lesson again. With what is happening with the corona virus. Etc. So i scrolled down and saw Miss Martha Gessa comment from 2010. And it gave me upmost pain in my chest. For i do worry a lot to and suffer from anxiety and i hope and pray if wherever you are Miss Martha. That you have/will/did overcome your financial woes and anxiety. For i too worry about same thing and i know its stressful. I'm still young and still don't have a kid. So i cant say much about that. But after listening to the rabbi's lesson. I got this urge to read siddur. Which I really don't do much. Since i prefer praying openly from my heart and mind.. i will keep you in my mind tonight while i do that. I hope G-D takes away this covid19 virus soon. Reply

@Miss Martha Gessa I may be wrong, I know I've been in the past, I think the only way a person's faith is tested is when their life or loved one depended on it, faith is subject to test. Reply

I am a very big fan of Rabbi Schapiro. I am very happy to hear this explanation from Rabbi Schapiro.
This one is very hard for me. Trust. I have a lot of faith and believe that G-d knows what he does and what he does is correct. G-d has always given me what I need, even when I have had days that I do not know where food will come from.
But I worry about a lot of things. I am a single mom, so I worry about my son or bills. If I am doing things right?
Then I feel bad and ask G-d to understand that I do have faith but, I still worry.
How do I reach that place where I am 100% faith or is this unattainable? Reply