http://www.chabad.org/search/keyword.asp?kid=12273 Newest articles written by Robyn Cuspin Copyright 2005, Chabad.org - Chabad-Lubavitch Media Center, all rights reserved. http://www.chabad.org/media/images/50/CtRx507451.gif 130 52 http://www.chabad.org Thu, 8 Oct 2009 12:00:00 EST Thu, 8 Oct 2009 12:00:00 EST http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=1004859 http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=1004859 For awhile, I bided my time. I went to the gym, and met friends for coffee. I enjoyed these months without bottles and diapers because I knew that the next load waited just around the corner. Until a series of miscarriages... Thu, 8 Oct 2009 12:00:00 EST http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=979273 http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=979273 We read the story of Chana and Penina on Rosh Hashanah, when we pray for a good, sweet year. We pray for abundant blessings. Yet I believe there is a lesson in their story, cautioning us that with blessings come responsibility... Mon, 7 Sep 2009 12:00:00 EST http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=804487 http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=804487 Without a candle to light, there is no external testament to these other two souls, who lived briefly and invisibly as members of our family. There is only a feeling of loss in the air... Fri, 24 Apr 2009 12:00:00 EST http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=837991 http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=837991 I place one foot in front of the other, and I walk forward into an uncertain future that contains moments of both pleasure and pain. This act takes courage... Thu, 19 Feb 2009 12:00:00 EST http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=767028 http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=767028 Happily contemplating the way our family was now growing on the fast track, I didn't honestly consider the second ultrasound as anything more than a technicality... Thu, 20 Nov 2008 12:00:00 EST http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=702379 http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=702379 It seems that my daughter is expected to appear in school each day with a ponytail, which is taken as a sign that she has a good mother. And I have foolishly allowed her to choose how she wishes to wear her hair... Fri, 18 Jul 2008 12:00:00 EST http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=631159 http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=631159 When tragedy finally came, these rules could not protect me, and it forced me to confront the real costs of playing it safe. How much had I missed out on, I wondered, as I traveled the safe route? Sat, 2 Feb 2008 12:00:00 EST http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=515912 http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=515912 How do I close this unlocked chamber of longing? These days are swollen with unspoken meaning. My body transcribes the calligraphy of loss, Encoding simple conversations With concealed grieving. Sat, 8 Dec 2007 12:00:00 EST http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=598283 http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=598283 I can't blame my mother, whose illness and family history prevented her from being able to mother, nor can I blame my grandmother for raising a daughter unable to mother... Sat, 24 Nov 2007 12:00:00 EST http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=580769 http://www.chabad.org/article.asp?aid=580769 Already at age five, I had moved much further beyond my own mother's boundaries than my daughter could ever imagine, and by age eleven, I had broken out of those boundaries entirely... Thu, 18 Oct 2007 12:00:00 EST