Stories of Return

Any kind of duplicity is both a talent and a burden. And I lead such a life. I am a Jewish woman walking the line between belief and practice...

I come up with excuses for the way I live my life. I power-walk so fast I plow down pedestrians—without remorse. I tell myself it's not my fault they can't keep up with foot traffic, not my fault they can't keep up with life. Life is moving fast and if you slow down, well… I didn't know what would happen since I'd never really tried it...

Besides the problem with the idea of labels in general, and the inappropriateness of the term "Orthodoxy" to a lifestyle that is itself a growth form, I have a very serious issue with the personal limits the term creates...

So there I was at Harvard's most exclusive garden party, unable to imagine any place higher. And all I was doing was standing there feeling relieved that nobody was noticing me...

I was sure that G‑d had given up on me, sure that I was being overlooked. The space between us seemed infinite and never-ending. But something stirred...

Judaism, in Russian eyes, is less like a religion, and more like a chronic, debilitating disease that they sincerely wish I could be cured of sometime very soon...

Trying to keep kosher represents my own evolving relationship with food, G‑d and being a Jew...

Sometimes finding peace of mind can be as easy as acknowledging our own will...

This year has been the most meaningful to me as a Jewish woman because the coming of the High Holy Days marks one full year since I decided to explore and immerse myself in Judaism. I actually started this journey as an experiment...

I was trying to fit in, be "cool," and at the time, my profoundly limited vision did not allow Judaism and "cool" to occupy the same sentence (unless the word "not" was involved). So, the novice soul searcher in me sought the teachings of sages and mystics elsewhere – mostly of the psychedelic variety...

Even among "my people" in the Dominican Republic, I am considered rather pale; but in a crowd of Ashkenazi Jews, people tend to see my measly tan as exotic. I only wish I could tell all the gawkers outright that, just two years ago, I was a non-practicing Catholic...

Why would any sane, successful and intelligent human being choose to give up a comfortably "free" secular life for one seemingly dictated only by rules, regulations and customs?

Some of my friends thought I was becoming "religious." That was a good one, considering I always thought an observant Jew was someone who noticed that the carpet needed a cleaning...

When I was eighteen years old, I had an internship at an auction house in Geneva. It was exciting and I befriended many interesting people, and yet, I still felt very much alone...

It was a frustrating see-saw that seemed to have no end to its tilting. Live in the world, or with the world. Neither extreme would satisfy completely, and a balance seemed impossible to achieve....

Why does she take the word of an archeologist at face value while rejecting the historic testimony of an entire nation? Why do I accept an ancient document filled with puzzling statements as my guide for 21st century living?

In that initial rush of excitement, I didn’t really get what it means to be a Jew. That finally having a Jewish soul, fully present and accounted for, doesn’t mean that you’ve climbed to a certain place and now you can just rest there...

Not that I had anything against Rabbis per se, I was just young and more interested in carving out my own brand of spirituality. But, here I was, as low as I had ever felt, knocking gently on the proverbial “heaven’s door.”

The rabbi was speaking of women's inherent spiritual superiority to men. My hand shot up. "Where are the men? Shouldn't they also hear of our elevated status?"

I had never seen such a strong bond and commitment in my life. The mere mention of his name would make their eyes sparkle. I never thought that I would be able to admire and respect someone so much...