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How a Portuguese King Found Solace in the Psalms of His Ancestors

How a Portuguese King Found Solace in the Psalms of His Ancestors


Although I converted to Judaism at the age of 19, having been inexplicably drawn to the ways of the Torah, I had no inkling that I was descended from Jews myself. After 44 years of living a Jewish life, through tracing the names in my mother’s family tree, I discovered that they were Judeo-Spanish names from Catalonia, Spain.

My search led me to get in contact with a distant French relative by marriage, Danielle, the widow of a French fourth cousin. She sent me a link to a document in the French National Library that contains our family’s tree allWhat, if any, possible knowledge of their Jewish heritage or ancestors was transmitted to them? the way back to Portugal of the 1500s—to Portuguese prince Luis de Beja-Avis (the son of King Manuel), who fell in love with, and married, a Jewish lady, Yolanda, daughter of a noble family of converted Jews. Their marriage was performed quietly—secretly, in fact, because he was the son of Manuel, king of Portugal, and she, from a family of converted Jews. Although they were nobility, they were of sangre soucia, suspected or tainted blood. It was evidently considered the right thing to convert the Jews, but not to marry them.

This document Daniella sent me contains not only the family tree of my great-grandmother’s mother’s side, but also the story of a famous figure: Antonio Gomez de Beja-Avis.

Prince Luis de Beja, son of King Manuel (his brother Juan became the next king), and his Jewish wife Yolanda Gomez had two sons, Antonio and Juan, who were Jews according to halachah, but—being from a family of converted Jews—were raised Catholic. Interestingly, they both married Jewish women.

When I read this, I wondered: What, if any, possible knowledge of their Jewish heritage or ancestors was transmitted to them? What did they know about being Jews, and did this have anything to do with choosing Jewish wives, or was that simply a “coincidence”?

This is the poignant story of one of their sons, Antonio, my ancestor. It touched my heart, and I’m sure that important lessons can be learned from it.

Antonio’s Story

When he was young, Antonio de Beja Avis was given a higher education, and spent years studying philosophy and religious thought in a Catholic school in Coimbra, Portugal. He inherited his father’s role as a cleric, but didn’t continue a spiritual lifestyle; the physical world was too compelling. He was bent on enjoying the pleasures this world had to offer.

Antonio served his country as a governor in Morocco, which at the time was partially ruled by Portugal. He was very well-liked by the common people of Portugal, and was a beloved and popular public figure. His marriage to a Jewish woman, Ana Barbosa, yielded several children, including the eldest, Prince Manuel.

At age 40, Antonio accompanied his cousin King Sebastian on a mission to subdue a rebellion in Morocco, which ended unsuccessfully. King Sebastian was killed, and Antonio was taken prisoner.

During the time Antonio was held captive in Morocco, his uncle Henrique, a cardinal, took the throne and destroyed all evidence of Antonio’s parents’ private marriage ceremony. Henrique knew the throne rightfully belonged to Antonio, the next successor, but he didn’t want Antonio to be able to claim what was rightfully his.

In the meantime, Henrique, who was elderly, passed away. At this time, Antonio was also freed from captivity in Morocco. He returned to Lisbon, Portugal, and was crowned king, acclaimed by the masses of the common people who loved him.

However, Antonio’s cousin, Philip II of Spain (whose father was Austrian and who had grown up in the Habsburg court), was determined not to let a Jew rule over Portugal, and spent a considerable amount of money bribing the rich landowner class of Portuguese to favor his claim to the throne over Antonio’s. Antonio ruled over Portugal for only a month at most, until Philip sent a large army of troops to defeat Antonio, oust him from the throne in Lisbon and overtake Portugal, annexing it to Spain.

Antonio fled for his life to Terceira Island (Isla Terceira) in the Azores archipelago off the coast of Africa, about 900 miles from Portugal. From Isla Terceira, King Antonio ruled, while Philip ruled mainland Portugal. After two years, Philip was proclaimed successor to the Portuguese throne. Even though Antonio was next in line to inherit the throne, Philip raised the issue of Antonio’s “tainted blood”—the blood of his Jewish ancestors—which Philip claimed should rightfully disqualify him.

Antonio left with his son Manuel to Paris, where his payment in crown jewels persuaded Catherine de Medici to use her connections to obtain a fleet of ships that sailed back to the Azores to battle with Philip and reclaim the throne. But the fleet was defeated. Antonio then went to England and persuaded Queen Elizabeth (who hated the Spaniards) to once again set sail to Terceira (where Antonio was convinced that his loyal followers would rally to his cause and oust Philip’s men).

Antonio was sadly mistaken. Philip had meanwhile won the people to his side, and they didn’t rally to Antonio’s cause. He was defeated again and returned to France, broken and penniless, having spent his entire fortune trying to regain the throne.

Antonio, who is known in history as “The Determined One,” spent his remaining years in Paris, ever fearful of Philip’s assassins, from whom he fled many times.

Ill and exiled from his homeland and his people, Antonio sought solace at last in a vestige of the faith of his mother’s people—in the Psalms of King David. Antonio is considered a hero because of his determinationNo doubt he identified very much with King David’s life saga of persecution, betrayal by those whom he had trusted and constant flight from those who wished to kill him.

Antonio even wrote a book on the theme of the Psalms, titled in English The Royal Penitent. No doubt, in his last days, Antonio had come closer to G‑d and regretted the ways of a youth spent in pursuit of the physical world.

And what of Prince Manuel, who followed his father into exile? He settled in Belgium and married a Belgian Huguenot princess of possible Jewish descent, Emilie Nassau, daughter of William I of Orange. They had eight children. Manuel still maintained ties to Spain, which had promised him government positions.

Since Spain was at war with the Netherlands, including Belgium, at the time, Princess Emilie considered Manuel to be a traitor to her people, and she left for Switzerland with her six daughters—one of whom, Maria Belgica, is my ancestor. Antonio died alone and broken in Paris, where he is buried.

Even though he was defeated many times, Antonio is considered in history to be a hero because of his determination in trying to maintain the independence of his homeland, Portugal. His son Cristobão, who had remained behind in Portugal, continued this cause after his father’s death.

What did I learn from this story?

Obviously, there is a lesson about the vanity of this world and its physical pursuits. In the end, we are left with only the soul. We must spend our time here on earth providing for our spiritual welfare, since this, as Antonio learned, is all that remains at the end of our sojourn here.

But I believe there is more to be gleaned from this story, which shows the strength of the pintele Yid, the spark of Jewishness inside us.

Even though Antonio was raised a Catholic and given an education within the church, in the end it wasn’t the beliefs of his father, but rather the Psalms of David—the king of his mother’s people—that gave him solace and to which he turned in his time of trouble.

I wonder again: Is it possible that Antonio’s mother, Yolanda Gomez, descendant of a noble Jewish family originally from Spain, was somehow, in spite of her upbringing as a converso, able to transmit something about the holiness and purity of Psalms to her son?

Whoever Antonio’s Jewish ancestors were, I’m sure they are rejoicing now that their spark of Jewishness did find its way down to us, their descendants, in the beautiful Jewish family of Torah-observant children and grandchildren G‑d has given me.

When our family performs mitzvot, which were lost to their descendants for 500 years, I think of these ancestors. When IWhoever Antonio’s ancestors were, I’m sure they are rejoicing now light my Shabbat candles, I light them for all the grandmothers of Spain, Portugal, France and Switzerland who either didn’t know they should light or were unable to do so. And I think of Yolanda, who was forced to hide for the rest of her life in a convent when her secret marriage to the prince was discovered. Whatever she secretly gave to her sons—that tiny spark passed down for 500 years—was finally fanned into a powerful flame of faith that ignited the heart of her descendant (me) and the hearts of my family!

Esther Margaretten is a registered nurse who is very grateful to be able to live near her grandchildren in Los Angeles.
Sefira Ross is a freelance designer and illustrator whose original creations grace many pages. Residing in Seattle, Washington, her days are spent between multitasking illustrations and being a mom.
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NK July 9, 2017

Thank you for sharing this interesting and touching story, and about your discovery regarding your lineage.
I hope and believe that in the end the King did have a meaningful life spiritually. The book of Psalms is certainly a daily inspiration. Reply

Leah Miriam USA July 19, 2017

Thank you for sharing you beautiful story. My paternal grandmother (from Warsaw, whose first language was Yiddish) told us that we were Sephardi (and, incidentally, descended from Baruch Spinoza). She was very insistent about this, but my cousins think this to be mere legend. However, 10 years ago my husband and I went to Portugal and we were fortunate to visit Jewish sites, including the synagogue and mikvah in Tomar. The minute I stepped off of the plane I felt as if I had been there before and that I was coming home, the Sephardi part of my pintele yid glowing more brightly. The caretaker at Tomar took one look at me and asked if I was Portuguese/Sephardi. I have done a lot of genealogical research on my mother's side and I would like to to trace my paternal grandmother's side all the way back to Portugal. A big task, I know, but I just have to set my mind to it. Reply

Esther Margaretten July 19, 2017
in response to Leah Miriam:

Leah Miriam, this is truly amazing! You're so fortunate to have made this connection! I get the chills reading about it!
It's well known that 20% of Ashkenazim are really descended from Sefaradim who escaped in the time of the Inquistion, to other European countries such as Poland, Germany and Bohemia.
The famous Portuguese conversos the Mendes Nasi family- who escaped to Turkey, were instrumental in securing safe haven in Poland and elsewhere for thousands of their fellow conversos. These Sefaradim then joined the Ashkenazi communities to where they escaped.
When Mashiach comes, he will tell each person who and what he really is. Until then, may all the lost Jewish souls find their way back to Hashem! Reply

paula reilly Concord July 17, 2017

I too am a Jew , a Portuguese Jew specifically. i was also raised both Jewish and Catholic, I never knew we were Sephardis from 500 years ago in Portugal. My cousin Reema went to Portugal and found our records and found the house and property we were forced to abandon and surprisingly, the Portuguese government send our family a formal apology for stealing our home and possessions and forcing my grandfather to turn to slave trading to survive. However although the account clearly said that my family left after only 2 weeks to escape death and that the government told them not to lock the door since the home would be given to a family who was Catholic. My cousin visited the home which is still inhabited and it was heartbreaking to imagine how my family suffered. I now celebrate my Jewish beliefs and am joyful to be a part of such an amazing people. Reply

Esther Margaretten July 18, 2017
in response to paula reilly:

Wow what an amazing story! Thanks for sharing! Reply

Katrina Portland July 14, 2017

My family - is from Spain I just found out. I am still on my long life journey of converting and will finally finish in Jan, 2018
This is a find for me for I just discovered a17th great grandma whom that is from the family in Spain that were convered Jewish family. She married a knight in England and thus the jewishness stops but I wish I could be able to trace her back before they were forced to convert. It on'y gave a 1st name of a Rabbi that she might be from.
Anyone out there would know how to help me with this? Reply

Esther Margaretten July 17, 2017
in response to Katrina:

Hi Katrina, it's Esther Margaretten. I'm fascinated by what you just wrote! I have English people too, in another branch of the family-who must have come from Jews from Spain and the south of France.
I would be very happy to try to give some ideas that would point the right direction toward tracing family.
I would also love to hear more about your ancestor and the Rabbi she may come from.
If you contact, with your email, I'll get back to you.

(That goes for anyone else out there who would like more info.)

Wishing you the very greatest success in all your endeavors!
Sincerely, Esther Reply

Andi Ziegelman Haifa July 13, 2017

Thank you for sharing this story. It is good for my soul. Reply

Rabbi USA July 13, 2017

Perhaps a profound lesson is that the battle we have in life is between desire - in this case for the crown - and acceptance - while we must walk humbly with Go-d our Lor-d, we should never run Reply

Tony Rodrigues July 13, 2017

Lovely story. Just wanted to add that the story of King Sebastian does not end there, he is rumored to have disappeared in Morocco in a fog filled night and to this day, in Portuguese folklore, many believe he will return in also a fog filled night and resume his reign. Part of my family is also descendent of converts, fact that I only found out lately and it resonated with me. I was not raised Jewish but some parts of Jewish history always seemed to be very significant to me, now I know why. Reply

Esther Margaretten July 13, 2017
in response to Tony Rodrigues:

Wow, that's amazing! I heard that 1 out of every 3 people in Portugal is descended from converted Jews. Portuguese conversos played an important part in settling Mexico and other countries of Latin America, and many of them escaped the shadow of the Inquisition and returned to the greater Jewish community in Salonica, Amsterdam, and Eretz Yisroel. There seems to be a similar phenomenon occurring in our days. The Bnei Anusim are returning to Hashem! Reply

Chana Israel July 12, 2017

Touching and inspiring Reply

Susana Costa Portugal July 11, 2017

There are jews in Portugal even before the foundation of the country. Its possible that many of us have at least one jew ancestor.
History says that kings and royal families were christians and for some time jews were very important people in the court.
The Church always had power and influence (it was the Pope that recognized the country) even in the Maritime Expansion. Reply