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Friend Committed Suicide

Friend Committed Suicide


Dear Rachel,

I just found out that someone I was quite close with committed suicide. I am so shocked and overwhelmed by the news, but I am also feeling incredibly guilty. I can't help but wonder what I could have done differently or if there was anything that could have prevented this. He had so many friends who were there for him and loved him as well as a supportive family. I just don't understand how it happened and at this point am just wondering what I should be doing for his memory?


Dear Devastated,

There is a desperate need in the Jewish world to openly discuss mental illness and take away any stigma associated with itI am so sorry to hear of your loss. Losing someone close to you is always difficult, but when you discover the person took his or her life it is that much harder. As I am sure you already do know and have been told by others that you cannot blame yourself. Your friend was clearly ill, and his perception of reality was so warped that even with a supportive family and friends it was not enough to stop his actions. I have no doubt that everyone who was close to him is wondering what they could have done differently; but someone who wants to take their own life is very hard to stop.

You ask what you can do practically at this point. There are a few suggestions I have that deal with different aspects of this tragedy. For starters, there is a desperate need in the world at large and specifically in the Jewish world to openly discuss mental illness and take away any stigma associated with it. We would never shun someone in a wheelchair or diagnosed with cancer. Nor should there be anything other than support and sympathy for someone who suffers from a mental illness. That person is sick and needs treatment. Without it, he or she will continue to suffer and as in the case of your friend, it can lead to death.

So speak to your friends and in your community. Speak about this tragedy and the need for medical and psychological support for those who suffer. Help diminish the stigma and let people know that it is okay to ask for help and that it's a sign of strength, not weakness, to acknowledge when there is a problem. Do what you can to let people know that whatever they are facing there are options to enable them to find some relief to their pain , yet continue to live their lives,

In terms of other ways of offering support to the family, there is both what you can do materially and also what is needed spiritually. It is quite possible that the family is in need of financial support to help pay for the funeral expenses and perhaps other bills that were left behind. Helping to pay for a proper Jewish burial is a huge mitzvah. It is also vital that it be arranged for someone to say the Mourner's Kaddish for him. If he does not have a family member who is able to do this, it should be arranged on his behalf.

As much learning and good deeds be dedicated to his memoryAnd lastly, I would suggest that as much learning and good deeds be dedicated to his memory. Clearly this was a very troubled and pained soul and the more that can be done to help his soul find peace at this point should be done. If you do not yet light Shabbat candles, that would be a very special mitzvah to undertake in his merit; the holy candles of Shabbat will be a weekly memorial to this soul, for "the soul of man is the candle of G‑d."

Again, I am sorry to hear of such horrible news. I wish you comfort and support as you deal with the loss of your friend, and may we always remember how precious and valuable every life is.

"Dear Rachel" is a bi-weekly column that is answered by a rotating group of experts. This question was answered by Sara Esther Crispe.

Sara Esther Crispe, a writer, inspirational speaker and mother of four, is the Co-Director of Interinclusion, a non-profit multi-layered educational initiative celebrating the convergence between contemporary arts and sciences and timeless Jewish wisdom. Prior to that she was the editor of and wrote the popular weekly blog, Musing for Meaning. To book Sara Esther for a speaking engagement, please click here.
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Donna Atlanta March 28, 2016

When someone takes their own life, it is shocking, sad and makes us feel helpless. We should not judge the life of someone by how they spent their last few moments of life. The complexity of the mind and soul of another will never be in the grasp of our understanding so, focus on the good of their life. Think of how you benefited from your interactions not the desperation of their final moments. Honor them everday by taking their best characteristic and make it yours. They will not die and be forgotten but live on in humor, kindness and positive actions that are carried in in their true friends. We can never know what truly goes on in the mind of another, even someone living what appears to be a golden life. Another reason to watch our words and cherish what have. God is all merciful and forgiving, if that is to be believed then it stands to reason he would not punish or banish someone who took their own life. He maybe angry at the sin, but not the sinner, for He forgives us. Reply

Elise February 4, 2016

I checked on a friend today to find out that she ended her life. Rachel, I appreciate your empathy but do want to note that while I'm sure you are trying to help others feel better, no amount of good deeds helps a soul earn or gain any merit! That's more like witchcraft. God knows the heart and has mercy; we can't attempt to play God and create a more favorable outcome. I supposed if we could, we would be Gods!! No, no. Pray for the peace among family members who are still suffering. God knew her heart, her pain, her life. He loves her more than anyone can imagine. Reply

Anonymous January 23, 2016

I am so broken...some days the pain is so great it's hard to breathe...crying seems so late to do...anger seems all I have felt most of my life...I am having a difficult understanding that a person could suffer more in the next world for taking their life...I just feel like screaming till i am completely empty of this pain... Reply

janice canada October 31, 2015

this is just sad to me. And to just say "your friend was clearly ill".....well it really minimizes that this person died of "sadness". It really infuriates me that when someone commits suicide the comment most often made is that they were mentally ill. is so much more than that Reply

Logan July 9, 2014

I lost a close friend 2 days ago I lost a really good Best friend, The best of friends, 2 days ago... She killed herself... I don't know why... She sounded like she had a good life....

She is the same age of me...
She was 14.
And she had so much in life, But ended up killing herself...

I am devestated... i just found out it happend.... And i cannot stop crying... Reply

Alan December 10, 2013

Helping a sensitive soul There have been recommendations to always take seriously even jokes about self-injury. One person's encouragement could make a good difference. Also, groups that encourage self-help and support can provide a group of supportive and understanding peers. Consider that your friend did not actually choose that path. How many times have there been palm fronds, swerving cars, landscaping bags, 18-wheeler trucks at a perpendicular angle to the road on a Friday night when I have chosen to go to services by car or to have dinner with friends? G-d forbid there had been an accident, it might have been spun a certain way. Be well and it is a blessing that you care. Maybe your increased sensitivity will make a difference in people's lives well into the future. Reply

Jeffrey Muchnik Austin December 9, 2013

Friend Committed Suicide My reply as a spiritual and a right wing Jew who believes in the fact that every Jew should help out every Jew where possible is that way too many Jews have no sense of responsibility and accountability and care about their fellow Jews. I network with Jews every day and many Jews tell me not to play the Jew card which is the reason for Jews to feel as alone as non-Jews. Jews have the same poverty rate as non-Jews even though Jews have way more Millionaires and Billionaires as a percentage of Jews. In my Grandparents day, Jew were forced and chose to live in a Jewish ghetto in Canadian and American cities and they helped each other. I once heard one successful Jew tell me about Darwin and the best Jew wins, which shows me we are alone as Jews. This is why you can see the intermarriage, poverty, criminal, voting for Osama/Obama, and other negative destructive issues facing Jews of all ages Reply

Darlene February 18, 2013

Lost two friends in one week to suicide I lost a very close friend to suicide last week . And I got word of another one that did same thing . How cope and deal with all this I am so toren up inside . Reply

Anonymous February 27, 2012

How to stop a bully Get friends and kick his behind. Most bullies are brave in a pack but turn in creepy cowards when isolated. To see these once-brave-now-suddenly-scared-to-death guys running through the bushes where a rabbit couldn't go is very rewarding, and even very depressed buddy of your would be rolling with laughter. Reply

Anonymous auckland, nz February 26, 2012

suicide i have a friend who was in yr9 he commtied suicide we all blamed ourself everyone kind of lost it became depressed and turned to drugs but after a while we learnt it wasnt going to bring him bak and the pain wouldnt go but it would get easier. none of us recongnized the signs and we all blamed ourselves because not one of us read the signs we didnt even no he was unhappy. But we stuck together and life is moving on we will forever always have him in our memory. I was wondering is there anyway i can help stop bullying and people commting suicide because of it ? Reply

Feeling so sad calabasas, ca November 23, 2011

Our New Neighbor/Housemate Noah I feel sad that less than about a week ago, Noah's body was discovered in the woods near the house we live at. According to the landlady who lives here and was treating him like her little brother, feeding him, etc., he had apparently taken off a few days earlier, without his wallet or any other possessions. He didn't have a phone.

He was like me a vegetarian and musician. I had been looking fowards to spending more time around the house to get to know him more/ shore music and such. i've been having a gig everyday very far away, and come back late, so it's hard. Also it was a little hard talking to him in general. he didn't like to say hi or anything. his girlfriend said he's always like this, and needs friends. Anyway, the day which we later learned he had disappeared, i was driving home from my work that night and was thinking how i'd focus on noah when i got back, or the next day, which i planned on spending it doing work on the computer and piano from home. But he was go Reply

Lisa Providence, RI January 22, 2011

Friend Committed Suicide Devastated, you CAN'T blame yourself for the actions of others! Your friend had serious problems and needed help.

Usually, people commit suicide because they feel "trapped" and believe that death is the only way out. You can talk to your friends and family and even seek therapy for your feelings of guilt. Reply

yoni Yerushalayim October 7, 2010

I think we should remember a couple of things here. First, it bears pointing out what the beit yosef had to say that, in our times, most suicides are by people who are entirely emotionally competent.

Second, Suicide does on occasion bear rational causes. Live is not always a pleasant thing to endure, and many people wear "rose colored glasses" as to this reality. When facing someone who is considering suicide, attention should always be paid to things that may truly be making his or her life intolerable, rather than dismissing his/her grief as being a pure sign of mental illness. Reply

Anonymous NYC, NY October 3, 2010

re anonymous in Florida Check out Kosher Fish Oils such as Nutri-Supreme, and make sure you have the best physician care as I'm sure you're aware of. May G-d guide you on the path and give you the strength that you will use positively to overcome your depression and lift others out of it as well. Reply

Anonymous Singapore September 28, 2010

suicide prevention A suicidal person often gives signs that he or she does not see a way out of their situation or is overwhelmed by emotional pain. It helps to acknowledge and openly let person know that you are concerned about him. Many times, just being there for them, acknowledging what the person is going through, without judgment (which in itself is a very challenging task!) and helping suffering person to stay focused on their sources of strength and hope, or to accept the situation, in some cases, is helpful. Reply

Anonymous Miami Beach, FL September 27, 2010

Thank you This is the first time I've seen an article like this on an Observant Jewish website. As someone who is struggling with severe depression and who has wanted to take my own life, I find I live in constant fear of disapproval from the orthodox community I am a part of. Thank you for reminding us all that this is an illness, and like any illness, the sick person is not at fault. Trust me, depression feels awful, and the urge to die is something almost insurmountable, a visceral pain--but it is not a choice, any more than physical pain from a heart condition or arthritis is a choice. There needs to be more support for sufferers of mental illness in the Jewish community as a whole and the orthodox/observant community in specific. We are not pariahs, nor are we weak or less dedicated to the Torah. It's awful that this man got to the point where suicide was an option and he took that final step. May his neshama have an aliyah and may he finally find peace. Reply

Anonymous September 27, 2010

Friend Committed Suicide I am so sorry for your lost. My friend committed suicide 5 years ago. I was devastated because I felt I did not do anything to help him. I still can not go around were his house is. Before he died he came for Rosh Hashana and gave us beer. I still have it. What I done to heal and recover from his death.
I always when I heard and they asked me what happen? I respond only beautiful words about him. Even though I felt a little angry at him for doing it I felt was not my place doing it hurt his soul even more.
I continue inviting his wife and kids to our home and keep calling them/email the wife to know how she was doing.
This past Yom Kippur we had his son and his future wife. We spoke about his father with love and respect that make my Yom-Tov more beautiful.
My friend son after his death did not want to do anything about religion. After he mature he is coming back little by little to shul to connect again what his father showed him before his die. Reply

Anonymous London, UK, XX September 27, 2010

How to prevent suicide My very close friend committed suicide three years ago and I understand completely how difficult it is to come to terms with this. Sadly, in this case, there was no supportive family, and due to his political activities, he experienced a lot of harassment from local authorities over the years. By his friends, he was perceived as a very strong, self-sufficient, and independent individual, who did not complain about his experiences. Very few people were aware what was really going on, but none of us was able to stop the systematic bullying from happening.

Sometimes, people need very little help to survive. Most of all, they need hope that their life can get better despite all odds. It is easy to lose will to fight for survival if there is no way out, and the only thing they can get from life is more pain for longer.

I fully agree with this article - proper funeral and spiritual care for his soul and his friends and family is essential. And watch out for others in need. Reply

Hinda schryber jerusalem, israel September 27, 2010

suicide AS a social worker who has teated people with mental illness for over 30 years, and as director of a psych rehab team - i can tell you that there is possibly NOTHING you or anyone else could have done to prevent this tragedy. Research shows that some people plan thier deaths by suicide and some people act on an impulse not really realising that theya re going to die as a result of thier actions. Some people reach out and tell others they are suicidal and in almost all of those cases the suicide is prevented.
And there are others who hurt themselves to " feel the pain" but dont mean to kill themselves - but it happens. I agree with everything that Sara says above, and especially the fact that we have to understand mental illness better and help people to get effective help and treatment. May the niftar's neshama (the soul of the decesaed) have an aliyah (elevation), and may you be comforted. Reply

Joseph A. Cleary Sand Springs, Ok., usa September 26, 2010

Suicide, is never painless. That which was said is true only if the ill of their minds are the one's who take thier own lives. Depression is a large factor in all of this as well. I always try to talk them out of their intended actions, if they get belligerent it's good not to lose control it's better to disarm them by agreeing with them. If they haven't a reason to do this awful thing you may be able to stop them, till they can get professional help. Reply

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