Believe it or not, there was a time when Moses was afraid. Yes, the greatest
leader of all time--the man who fought and vanquished Pharaoh, split the sea, challenged the angels on High for the rights to the Torah--this spiritual
colossus was afraid. Who and what could possibly frighten Moses?
In the end of the parshah of Chukat (Numbers 19:1-22:1) we read that G-d
reassured Moses, "Do not fear him." Why did Moses need reassuring? The story is
this. The Israelites were about to go into battle against Og, King of Bashan, a
mighty warrior, a man who was literally a giant. And Moses was afraid to such an
extent that the Almighty had to assuage his fears.
Why did Og inspire such dread in the great prophet? Surely Moses had dealt
with more formidable threats in his career. According to Rashi, the story goes
back many years. Og (or according to some commentaries, the ancestor of the
current king) escaped from battle during the days of Abraham. This refugee then
came to Abraham and informed him of his nephew Lot's capture in battle. Abraham
immediately went into action, fought the kings who had captured Lot and successfully rescued him.
Says Rashi, Moshe was afraid to do battle with Og lest the merit he had acquired
when helping Abraham might stand him in good stead.
In other words, the fact that Og had done a kindness to Abraham all those
years ago might be considered of such special significance that he would be
spiritually protected from harm in the merit of Abraham, the beneficiary of his
good deed.
But was it really such a good deed? The same Rashi (in his commentary on
Genesis 14:13) informs us that Og's motives were not altogether altruistic.
Apparently, by telling Abraham that his nephew Lot had been taken captive, Og was
actually hoping that Abraham would attempt to rescue his nephew and be killed in
battle, so that Og could then take Abraham's beautiful wife, Sarah, for
himself--hardly an act of magnanimous righteousness! Why would Moses be worried
about the spiritual merit of conduct tainted by such ulterior motives?
The answer, it would seem, is that although Og's motives were far from
unselfish, the fact is that he had done Abraham a kindness. Abraham was grateful
for the information and was, in fact, successful in saving Lot from his captors.
So, although Og's reasons were less than noble, the end result of his deed was
good and Abraham considered it a favor.
That's why Moses was afraid that Og's spiritual credits might protect him.
And that is why the Almighty needed to put Moses' mind at ease. Do not fear
him, for into your hand have I given him, his entire people and his land.
It is an incredible lesson in the power of chesed, acts of loving
kindness. That one good turn, performed so many years back and out of sinister
motivation, could cause Moses himself so much anxiety is surely
proof positive of the awesome and long-term positive effects of a single act of
kindness.
Clearly, from a spiritual point of view, deeds of goodness and kindness have
the power to protect us from harm. Performing a single act of compassion or
helping someone in need really does have the capacity to shield us. In the end,
we are not only helping them but helping ourselves.
Let this story inspire us to be a little more considerate to each other, a
little more helpful to those around us. And may our benevolence protect us and
our families from any harm.