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Why I'm Not Coming to Shul


From: ________ ___________

Sent: Thursday, 22 September 2016 1:24 PM

To: Rabbi Elisha Greenbaum

Subject: Why I won't be in shul next week

Rabbi, thanks for the phone call, but I’m going to say no.

You know how much I love you and how much _____ and I admire what you and Leah have managed to accomplish in the community, but I don’t think I’ll be coming to shul this year.

It’s not you, it’s me. ;-)

I just don’t enjoy the crowds.

It is so much easier to pray at home. I have the time and space to read the prayerbook at my own pace, and I’m guaranteed a comfortable chair. I don’t have to get all dressed up, and I don’t have to worry about finding a seat.

I know that it makes me sound so petty, but I have an even better reason for not wanting to come to shul on Rosh Hashanah. Praying at home is not just more comfortable, it also feels more spiritual to me. When I daven at home, it’s just me and G‑d. I can pick the bits of prayer that speak to me, and I can focus on what I need to work on.

Admit it, Rabbi, when you give your sermons, you’re not (just) talking to me. I don’t blame you. I know you have to worry about everyone there, but it’s just not the same as hearing a message tailored to me, like when we speak during the year. It’s not that I don’t care about the other people in shul, I just think that I have to prioritize, and this year my priority is going to be me.

Please, please don’t take it personally. I do appreciate all you do for me, and I will see you during the year—just not in shul on the busy days.

From : Rabbi Elisha Greenbaum

Sent: Thursday, 22 September 2016 11:54 PM

To: ________ ___________

Subject: RE: Why I won't be in shul next week

Mate, I never take anything personally. If anything, I’m grateful that you took the time to respond and didn’t just drop out of sight, leaving me wondering what was wrong.

I get you. In a way, you make a lot of sense. Sometimes, when I’m going to shul in the morning, I also wonder if I’m walking in the right direction. It is sometimes easier to worry only about oneself, and I do accept that as the shul is, thank G‑d, getting more crowded, I just can’t pay as much individual attention to each person as I used to. (My biggest quibble is with your description of my speeches. Believe me, every sermon I’ve ever given has been addressed directly at you, my friend.)

There are parts of Judaism you can only do with a crowd. For example, we can only read the Torah with a minyan of 10 men. (And just who do you expect to walk to your house to blow shofar for you . . . ?) But I believe that on the High Holidays it is even more crucial to join together and cast your lot with the community.

You want proof? We’ll read in the Torah this week, “To make you high above all nations that He has made . . . that you may be a holy nation to the L‑rd your G‑d, as He has spoken.”1Rashi comments that the reference to where “G‑d spoke” is in the Torah portion of Kedoshim, where we are instructed, “Be holy to me and I will separate you as a nation, for me.”2

The Rebbe points out that there are a number of instances in the Torah where we are commanded to be holy, but these two are special. All the other times we’re told to be holy, the verse is written in the singular: you, the individual, should commit to G‑d and work at becoming spiritual. Here, though, the verse is addressing the collective nation. Because, though it’s important to work on yourself and achieve individual mastery, there are heights you can only ever achieve when you’re part of a collective, a “holy nation”working together to get closer to G‑d.

Why this is so, I’m not sure. I could speculate that the very fact that we’re all squashed together, squeezing ourselves into crowded pews, sharing a machzor with the guy in the next seat, listening to a broad-based sermon from a rabbi who loves the congregation all equally, means that we’ve got less time and space to think about our own needs, desires and comforts and are almost forced to concentrate on G‑d.

Whatever the reason, we know that we only achieve true holiness when we achieve it together. There is no better place for you to daven and achieve spirituality this Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur than in a crowded shul, and that’s precisely where Leah and I are expecting to see you this Yom Tov.

P.S. I love you, too.

Rabbi Elisha Greenbaum is spiritual leader of Moorabbin Hebrew Congregation and co-director of L’Chaim Chabad in Moorabbin, Victoria, Australia.
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S United Kingdom September 4, 2017

It is very saddening to read that such a faithful person is declining the blessing of HaShem, where one is able to attend Shul. We each have choices, but a little sacrifice of personal time is nothing compared to the blessing of being with other people HaShem loves and desires as an individual and congregation.

Time is of the essence and it would be wonderful if any reader of this may be able to quote the Rebbe's view on this matter, as the Rebbe's (I feel) can explain HaShem's desire to see mankind in love and harmony together celebrating life now in preparation for the Moshiach.

I pray that one day I will be able to share time with the children of HaShem, in Shul. For now I count my blessing of having Reply

Dave Klepper Jerusalem, Israel September 16, 2017

Possibly, CHABA"D congregations don't use enough music in prayer. I moved from Reform to Orthodoxy precisely because of the wonderful and inspiring music at N. America's oldest congregation (not the buildling, the congregation). Then, one mitvah at a time, i leaned that Orthodox Judaism was right for me and for me the only authentic Judaism. But it was the music that drew me in. Now, singing the prayers at a Jerusalem Hesder Yeshiva is the most enjoyable part of my life. And my singing encourages others to sing. And my inspiration is shared with others, and we help each other in being closer to the Eternal.

This just doesn't happen when I pray by myself.

Is not just New York's Shearith Israel where I became Orthodox. There is the Carlbach Synagogue and its offshoots. My path to Orthodoxy in truth started before my entrance to Shearith Israel, five years earlier at the Mount Zion Sephardic Congregation and A"H Rabbi Avraham Caspi.

CHABA"D needs more music. Reply

Rowland New Zealand September 10, 2017

There is collective worship and personal devotion. Both are essential to full spiritual health. Reply

S United Kingdom September 10, 2017

If you have an abundance, why do you not give thanks? Yet, there are those individuals who weep because attending Shul is beyond them due to; distance, health and sin.

Attending Shul is only partly for the individual person, your Neshama cries out to HaShem for redemption and the coming of Mashiach.

It's you choice about, my, myself or I?

Do you attend for HaShem or status?
When we are resurrected it will be for our own merit, nothing and no one can pay our ransom price.
Give praise to HaShem, not man. Reply

Anonymous September 10, 2017

I've seen numerous sources that emphasize the importance of davening with a minyan. But I can't communicate with Hashem when the service leader is reading the words five to ten times faster than I can read them, and I can't even keep track of which page of the siddur he's on.

That's why I pray by myself, at my own pace.

But I do "dress up" for the three daily prayer services. And I read the relevant Torah and Haftarah portions from a chumash, without saying the accompanying blessings; for one praying by himself, that's acceptable according to

David Reply

Moisheberl USA September 8, 2017

The response didn't address the needs outlined in the letter. Why not? Reply

Pearl Shifer Brooklyn September 8, 2017
in response to Moisheberl:

you rhink a moderator actually read it? Reply

Anonymous Brooklyn September 7, 2017

I don't feel like going to shul either. There are two people who say good shabbos to me, that's it. So who needs to be there. Reply

Anonymous Efrat September 12, 2017
in response to Anonymous:

How many people do you say Good Shabbos to? Reply

Anonymous September 7, 2017

A shul that needs a minyan of "10 men" to read from Torah is not a shul that needs me. Therefore, I will go elsewhere. Reply

a yid September 7, 2017

So maybe find a smaller shul or shtieble that works for you? Reply

S United Kingdom September 7, 2017

Sorry, my previous comment should have read, more comments from the Rebbe's. My sincere best wishes to you all. Reply

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