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Unruffled Feathers

Unruffled Feathers

Calm in the face of disturbance


I will try to be unruffled, no matter what happens. I will try to keep my emotions in check, although others around me are letting theirs go. I will keep calm in the face of disturbance, keep that deep inner calm through all the experiences of the day. (24 Hours a Day, Feb. 16)

Before I began working my 12 step program, this would have been a dream, an impossible one. I was never unruffled, and could usually be counted on to "lose it" sometime during most days. Today, it is a possibility that this can really happen. If I think about why it's possible, there is only one answer for me, and that is, that I believe that my Higher Power is arranging the difficulties of my day in order to help me grow from them. It would be easy for me to see it differently - that He is trying to provoke me, get me to lose my temper, make things hard for me, etc. In fact, two people recently gave me that 'take' on their own lives. They are angry at G‑d, feeling really ticked off and picked on. I just don't see it that way anymore.

Maybe there was a time when I often lived on the 'pity pot' thinking 'poor me' most days. But if so, that time has long passed. I feel like our world clock is somehow ticking down to something big, that we are all soon to see a big lesson of sorts. In that case, all this "learning opportunity" is good. I see things in a new light: My challenges in life are geared towards this - growth, learning and connection with my Higher Power. All these things that could easily serve to get me to lose my temper, have my emotions explode — are now seen (by me) in a new way. So, no reason to "get ruffled" by the challenges and events. Instead, it's just another "spiritual" and "learning" opportunity to look at it all and see what I can do about it, learn about it, and even just to ask my HP what He wants from me, right here and right now.

What a different way to look at life! Even when I may see others around me losing their cool over the very same things. Often I feel like I'm in a time warp, or third dimension, since I am not feeling so stressed by the very same things that seem to stress others. This is especially startling to me, since I used to respond in the very same way. Perhaps this is what we mean in program about changing our way from "reacting on life to acting on life." I guess that's what's meant by "choosing" to live instead of having life just sort of run away with us. Choosing to remain calm in the face of frustration, too.

I like that — the "choice" part. When I was in active addiction, my choices were gone. It was all automatic. Today I get to choose. Super-cool.

Frumstepper is a Jewish Twelve Stepper who writes about how she is continually reminded that "G-d is driving the bus," and about her efforts to "let go and let G-d" in dealing with all that life throws her way. You can read more of her musings on her personal blog.
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A P NYC December 11, 2016

Mybe? You know, I wish! Me is not seeing it this way, I get upset at ... and say "Why did You do this to me? Did I act bad to my fellow? Did I do a sin that is deserving such plows?"

Why I have been going out on many times to help others, to give a hand to some, who has none. I was always on my watch to see all Your Commandments were done! (On my personal life) Time and time again I did not raise my voice in anger.

But now, head heart don't feel that great. Pulling them to work for You every other day.
Boy oh boy do I got to thank G-d for so much and I mean lots of good great awesome things he does for me hourly. How, how can I be Accepting my head which works like half as good, and my feelings that work like some type of brick?!

I just don't see the problems as good? Reply

Anonymous San Jose'', CA September 10, 2012

Losing it... Thank you, I too... don't see it that way,anymore... Reply

Inge Reisinger Germany February 22, 2010

If you found G-d than you understand why
some are losing their cool over the same
things while you ge easily through. And G-d
is always inside but you'll find him between
the letters. Reply

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